Thursday, September 25, 2008

You're indifferent and I can't stop smiling.

I've probably been in one of the best moods i've been in a long time thus far. I don't know what's doing it more for me. I'm not getting the best grades at school (but that's one persons opinion, and to be honest, a whole other Pandora's Box will be opened if I continue on the subject) which is what I was expecting out of myself. Yet i'm proud of the fact that i'm pushing myself so much everyday, getting there on time, not missing school and actually doing my homework.

The only thing i'm getting pumped on for tomorrow is seeing Karlie. The rest can go to the dogs. I'm so nervous, it hurts. And i'm not even doing my final practical exam.

Someone called the school today already looking to book with me. Not bad for 3 weeks.

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Well, I feel rather disconnected from everything. I'm always in some sort of transitional period...with everything. Once I start focusing on something, I barely have the brain capacity to remember what I was focusing on before that. I barely know what's good for me anymore. Going out? Working out? Which one will make me feel better? I feel like all my efforts go down the drain. I just want to get through these ten months even if that means that i'm going to be couped up for that long and not catching up on what's playing lately at the Cinematheque or which Live band is playing at Shannon's Pub (ugh) then so be it.

Fuck it. I don't care.

Just when things start to go right, they blow up in your face.

Walking out of the salon, I just felt like no one gave a shit how much work I put into my shifts.

Or how much effort I made into knowing everyone's little quirks.

...Or how I lost one of my good friends in the process...

That one may be my fault.

HUGE PS: I said hi to Against Me today. They were across the street from Mason and I on Albert. No Biggie.

I promise this is the last PS: I hope I can afford a Betsey Johnson item one day. Or just afford for her to come to my house and be my live in designer. Only she can give the allure that being at the Circus is HOT HOT HOT.